This is the saddest moment of my life
I find out the real me is just a shadowy
Existence of what I thought I should be.
The truth is hard to swallow; but
Alas I must confess, I lived the way I thought was the best
I thought I gave the most important things
The material things could be gained later
My hopes my dreams, I guess took over the reality of what is
And now I have to live with this.
To know there’s no one on my side makes me function out of tune
At times I wish for the end would come soon.
I knew we would always be friends
Now I sit and wonder how to make a mends.
Swallowed up in this thought I realize
There is no end or beginning, just
A continuous movement towards the goal set before us
Swept up now in the details I release these to the essence of what is true
In reality all you can do is continue to grow and get better
No matter what’s askew.